Is it bad that I love you but I don\u2019t like you? Is it bad that I think you\u2019re beautiful but everything out of your mouth that you\u2019re not mimicking is almost always stupid? And the stuff you mimic is almost as bad, but it\u2019s better thought out. Like the holocaust. Terrible and tragic, but there was a plan.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m torn between worship and disgust.<\/p>\n
There was a time when I had nothing to explain or ask explanations of. When I see you I see an angel. Who doesn\u2019t give one fuck about anything except being angelic.
You look at me and call me a devil. I know exactly what I am.<\/p>\n
There are words I don\u2019t say. There are places I don\u2019t like to look at. I made a mess in some of them, but that\u2019s not why I don\u2019t like to look. The difference between you and me, and I hate to think about it even. You don\u2019t know how to look.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m going to lie in this hospital bed that’s actually my bed. I don\u2019t want to be dead. I certainly didn\u2019t try to be here. But if I could not exist anymore and be happy at the same time, that would be my choice.<\/p>\n
A happy life to you has no conflict. Life is conflict. When it ends, so do you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Is it bad that I love you but I don\u2019t like you? Is it bad that I think you\u2019re beautiful but everything out of your mouth that you\u2019re not mimicking is almost always stupid? And the stuff you mimic is almost as bad, but it\u2019s better thought out. Like the holocaust. Terrible and tragic, but … <\/p>\n