How do we start this? How do I tell a story about everything by telling a story about me? Why would you care about me? I certainly don\u2019t. Why should you? I\u2019ll give you a reason. This isn\u2019t a story about me. It isn\u2019t about what happened to me, though that is all I\u2019m going to tell you. Every word that follows is about you. I only know what I\u2019ve seen and read, so I can only write that. But none of it is that specific. I\u2019m not that good.<\/p>\n
This is my story, so it\u2019s everyone\u2019s story. It\u2019s my voice, but it\u2019s your voice too. My friend told me I was self-absorbed. I\u2019ve been wrapped up in the vision in my mind since I knew I had a mind. Her calling me out is just saying the obvious.<\/p>\n
We were talking about lovers. She\u2019s happy with hers. I\u2019ve been juggling. I was telling her that as I get older, it has become very easy to talk people into doing what you want them to do, especially sexually. We have this whole pretense, mostly women, about how sex is this fortress that needs to be climbed or conquested. It is not. It wants to surrender. It wants to be given up. It just needs a reason. If not for the world, then for itself. Legs want to know why they are spreading. I didn\u2019t know that when I was a boy. I was always looking for a superfluous cause. Everything is so simple if you don\u2019t make it difficult.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s why drunks succeed before they get too drunk. Alcohol removes pretense. It removes that chameleon dance where you jump and jump and try to fit this skin or that color. And instead just be the fucking lizard that you are.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
How do we start this? How do I tell a story about everything by telling a story about me? Why would you care about me? I certainly don\u2019t. Why should you? I\u2019ll give you a reason. This isn\u2019t a story about me. It isn\u2019t about what happened to me, though that is all I\u2019m going … <\/p>\n